To know that I missed out on director's list by a GPA margin of just 0.04 is a sickening feeling. 0.04. 15 subjects taken in year 1, I just needed one more grade from any of those 15 subjects, upgrade any of those C+s into a B, or a B into a B+, and I would be there.

Fine margins. At the start of year 1, I didn't specifically aim to get into the director's list. But it was a nice bonus as well. I normally wouldn't be bothered, after all it is meant to reward the really top students. But to know that you came so close really hurts.

I feel that I deserve it - but I can't complain. 25% of the cohort probably could say they feel they deserve it too, and I wouldn't be able to argue back.

When I see them getting their certificates, I will have to look on in envy instead. Knowing that I could have been there. Knowing that I probably should have been there.

I will have to console myself with the fact that only the top 7 people from my course get into the list. That means I was the 8th best student in a cohort of 70 people. Normally something I would be proud of. But right now it still feels hollow.

Joel at 5/12/2011 02:08:00 AM :: link

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